I'm tripping on my boredom

I’m tripping on my boredom

even here is Africa boredom follows you.. yes it took about 5 months to catch up with me but now it’s surrounding my feet and entangling me. Maybe this isn’t boredom actually ...it’s perhaps being chased by things that you have to do, or at least think you have to do and finally having to do them! Here I am in Botswana plagued by the same things that irritate me in Canada, air conditioning on a beautiful warm day, having to sit in front of my computer all day long, and taking my stress out by baking... which doesn’t really alleviate any stress it just adds more cleaning, which at least keeps me occupied lol.
Research is begun.
I don’t understand why we do things we don’t enjoy.. and say we have to do them. It’s puzzling really b/c all it does is cause a lot of stress and anxiety. Why don’t we all just follow our dreams and do things we enjoy?

So maybe I’m in Namibia withdrawl. Let me tell you a bit about Namibia. We drove to Windhoek first stop which was insane. It’s like a real city, stoplights, restaurants and best of all customer service! Then we headed to Swakopmund which is right on the coast and in a desert. It’s cold there and I definitely wasn’t expecting that, I guess the ocean breeze cools things off even though it’s a desert. We went out for sushi at a restaurant on a long jetty, sat on the beach and drank wine, climbed a giant sand dune at sunset and i went fishing for snook in the ocean and caught five. Now i’m sitting on the patio floor by my office listening to cows moo and watching ants scurry by... since I can’t find the key to the office. Morgan went to an overnight flight at some sweet lodge in the Delta, Dinah’s napping, church is cancelled and Alastair’s far away... sigh I’m bored. But mostly in Namibia withdrawl.
If you can go do it. It’s great.
Lily apparently likes to eat ants... she’s downed about 20 of them since I started writing this. lol. At least she does something useful... doesn’t seem to help in the house though when it’s swarming with ants....
I can’t wait for the rainy season to start so that I can watch cool lightning shows.... why does no one like to go swimming here? It’s annoying b/c there’s a pool and we can use it .. but no one wants to go with me.. if I go alone i just look as if I’m going after the guy who live there... and maybe I am but I don’t want to seem desperate...
have you ever had a very beautful but scary spider on your laptop while you’re typing ... i do right now.
and i think that’s the end of my entry . i know it hasn’t made much sense but then again i’m not feeling very sensible today... lol. miss you all!