reseaaaaarch....

Yeah. I’m working on my ‘research’

So the extent of my research carried out so far... is some thoughts, a proposal that I’m no longer using and one that’s half finished....The fake proposal was much easier to do ....I am currently working on my new proposal... and by that I mean listening to music and drinking some beer while sitting out in the sun... and reading a book about small-scale research... kind-of. BUT at least I’m not at the pool and hanging out with boys... which is usually what I do.Now it’s time to get to actual work considering I have one month left and it seems that it may be a bit of a war to be able to stay longer to actually do research that is of any significance....I’m pretty sure there are wasps making a nest in my sink... not that it matters since I have no water to wash anything with lol...
I wonder how everyone else is managing on their placements...

So the question burning in my mind these days is who am i? well maybe not who.. but what do i want? A friend told me nonchalantly the other day that next year when I’m done my undergrad I should take the time to just do something I want to do, just for me. I laughed and said yea I should.. but then I really started to think about it... Haven’t I always been doing things for me.... or things i felt I should be doing? I don’t even know! lol.. how messed up is that.. maybe I am schizophrenic.. I mean how does someone not know what they want... or what their goals are? Maybe I used up all my passion while I was young.. do we get that in limited quantities? I think the world may be too big for me... and have too much to offer maybe? If I took a year and didn’t follow the practical path.. what would I do? I honestly have no answer anymore... and then I realize I actually have millions of answers I just don’t know which one is the right one.

Good news..! I have a friend who worked a miracle and fixed my computer power cord.. which is great b/c it’s a horrible task to try to get one over here!
ok back to actual work...

ahhhhh i have no motivation!!