June 14th
I am tired. I think I would like to now read someone else’s blog....instead of writing my own.
June 16th ,
Today is the day of the African child...never heard of it. I’m watching a white moth flutter against the window, trying to get to the light, the dark ready to swallow it up.
I wonder how long it will take for it to realize its efforts are futile?
How often am I a moth, pushing, straining, against something unmovable and so much larger than myself which I will never break through? How are we as humans doing the same? Are we just all moths fluttering around thinking we can reach the light, when really we’re just wearing ourselves to death trying...?
Its kind of like how today the water didn’t work, but I decided my hair had reached its unacceptable greasy stage and so deserved to be washed...After the effort of boiling water, filling the basin/bucket and ‘showering’ I sat down to watch Vicky Christina Barcelona while my hair dried. And it dried. To a greasy dirty mess, worse than before I had washed it. How does this happen I ask?
I am like the moth, assuming if I see light, or in my case water and soap, my hair will be clean? I guess the shampoo here is really not made for white hair...we’ll have to try something else...
In other less depressing and contemplative news, I have a new room-mate named Dinah. She is nice, speaks Spanish, Italian and some French and can cook! I’m happy so far, although she has an irritating habit of locking the door. Which, as anyone who knows me should know, I don’t really enjoy, nor agree with. Even when I go out to dump the compost I come back to the house to a locked door... but at least she has good motives for doing it....I think. I still say we should live as if we live in the world we want to live in...besides what could happen? Someone steal my underwear?
In work news drama is building, we are having quite a confrontational meeting tomorrow which should be interesting. We are also finishing up the interviews for a driver so hopefully we’ll soon have a vehicle and driver and can actually work in the health program. Let me just say that I really admire those people who have worked patiently in the development world to improve capacity and break corruption... its a trying task and one which I would say is impossible. Its turns out I am not an eternally positive person. Cough.
Tomorrow I am also going to Maun hopefully with Dinah to go shopping, visit Sara ( a friend I met in training in Gabarone) and spend some much needed time out of Shakawe! I think I will also buy some good wine and lettuce :)
ps. Vicky Christina Barcelona is creepy, the characters kind of seem like the two sides of my personality....
so my tailbone hurts.. and i have nothing worthy to write about and thus will leave you with another quote
~ the horizon has been defeated by the pirates of the new age, alien casinos well maybe I just have to say that things can go bad and make you wanna run away but as we grow older the trouble just seems to stay.... Jack Johnson
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Yes, as your Bio states, you are an eternal pessimist, so your statement referring to not being an eternal optimist is of course redundant.
ReplyDeleteSomehow though, you seem to continue on with remarkable buoyancy and a markedly happy exterior. Who would know? Me thinks you like to complain but once it's out, you carry on.
On a more +ve note, hopefully each day will get brighter and more bearable.
I am happy you have a roomie who can look after you! I'm glad she locks the door. Most intelligent-minded people do. You should take a few hints from her. It may keep you safe.
Apart from that,,,,,have you considered a career outside of development??lol.
You know I love you!! Keep up your spirits and be smart!!